Well that went by quick. A full week off with my hubby & sweet kids. I can say we definitely made the most of it. Sleepovers, the beach, pool parties, museums, movies and much more! I am so thankful for everything we got to do together, but heading back to work today is tough.
I am usually pretty good and juggling it all without getting too caught up thinking about what I am missing from my kids life while I am work. But sometimes, after time off together or just full day alone with my kids, I wonder if it is really worth it. I think every working mom has these moments.
When I feel this way, I try to rationalize it. Would I cherish the time with my kids as much if I was with them ALL the time? Obviously, I would like to think the answer is yes… but honestly, I don’t know. When I get home from work, I am so happy to see my family. I enjoy every moment of dinner… hearing Hudson’s stories from school, watching Mila throw food down to the dog. I let Hudson take his time playing in the bath and read him extra books if he wants it. I hold Mila until she falls asleep and sometimes, just stare at her for a bit. If I was with them all day, would I have the same level of patience? Or would I be rushing to just get them to bed so I can finally have a moment to myself? I hate to say this… but I think it would be the latter.
I also try to focus on the positive things about working. I like my job, always have. I enjoy socializing with other adults, eating my lunch without having little hands steal half of it, and making money isn’t bad either.
Also, I suck at cooking and cleaning, so if that was my ‘job’ my husband would definitely fire me.
And while today I may be telling myself these things just to make myself feel better, by the end of the week I know I will be back to actually believing them. Hopefully.